January 31, 2009

My 53 Birthday

wow never thought i would be here at 53 years old. I really did not.

I am so grateful that inspite of my illness I have survived and not just survived but i have also became a better me.

even though the years have been very hard and because of struggling with mental illness I lost a lot of good times, good friendships, good experiences, great jobs, and other things that those who do not struggle with mental illness take for granted. I am glad that I went through all that i did so that I now can say I have overcome a lot.

Even now I still have real bad days and the symtoms of the mental illness can make it seem like i have not survived anything or have overcome anything and yet I become stronger.

I do not know what this year of being 53 will be like , I do know that there are things that i know i can walk through that i did not think i could before.  I will now continue to start to have good experience with friends,with work, with good times , I am so grateful for everything i have experience for sure the last three years.