Nancy's world

Nancy Jensen, a mental health survivor for the past 30 years, is a certified peer specialist/trainer, and advocate for those who are being abused, neglected or exploited by mental health providers. In 2006, she received the Voice Award from the U.S. Department of Health & Human Services for speaking out about crimes committed against her and others by Arlen and Linda Kaufman while in residential treatment. In addition to being a key witness at their trial in federal court, Nancy successfully lobbied for the establishment of the Kansas Attorney General's Abuse, Neglect and Exploitation Unit.

November 28, 2010

Sunday,What can I say about Sunday?

There is so much I want to say about Sunday.

Sunday starts a new week.

It is a day of rest for some who believe that God was talking about Sunday.

People go to a building where they meet with others and they sing and listen to someone talk about God and how we ought to be doing things better for others.

Sunday use to be very important to me, going to a building greeting everyone, singing songs about my Jesus, praying for needs of others and then listening to a man share what he has learned from the Bible this past week, then we sing a closing song about Jesus and leave the building till next week. Some people would get together during the week and read the Bible and share what is happening in their lives and you pray with them and then go home. Then it becomes Sunday again.

I do not go to a building anymore and to be honest I do miss it. I miss hearing the songs about Jesus and hear what the Pastor thinks is important to share. I miss taking the bread and the cup as a remembrance of Jesus and what He did for me. I miss praying for others and the excitement when someone chooses Christ and yet it is better for me to not be there.

I have had some wonderful experiences being in church and I have had some very painful things that was done” in His name” to me. I have met some wonderful people and some of my most painful relationships were those in the church.

So on Sunday I listen to Christian music and do some Scripture reading and do some praying and just have my own church. Some day I will go back into a building but for now its just me and God.

As I read what I just wrote I am sad that it has come to this and yet I am at peace that I am not messing up any relationships and that I am not a mission for someone. That is how it use to be, now I am free to BE What God Wants Me to Be.

1 year ago • Notes