Nancy's world: Archive

I have two weeks to go before my Geodon is lowered...

I thought I would write and share how it has been going, after my last writing the relating to Jeff and my brother is better. I have not flew into a rage since I wrote last so that makes the living around me better. I have had many thoughts, some things I have not thought of in awhile. It is interesting how things I haven’t thought of in a long time just pops into my mind, and then I have...

May 30th

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it is my second doze reduction

Things are getting alittle more intense now and it is starting to effect my life every day. I am on 60mg now and its just geting hard. The question of “if I should be doing this is?” is starting to focus often in my mind, also questions about what if a pill was what was making things work like my marriage and it hasn’t mess up work but what about work. I do not know who are my...

May 22nd

It has been a week and three days

It has been a week and three days since I have lower my dose of Geodon. Some parts of my day I feel no change and then other parts of my day there is a change. Parts of my day I feel like everything is heighten and intense. my emotions thoughts even with my senses and body. Then in the evening there is a restlessness that is hard to deal with but I do pretty well by walking. I am not to start...

Apr 22nd

I am getting off Geodon

I am so happy, I am going to be getting off Geodon, it will take till July to be completely off. The Doctor was very open to it, said we would do 20mg a month till I am completely off. Of course he had to tell me all the things that could or would happen and when it might happen. Luckily I already knew most of it after reading Harm Reduction Guide To Coming off Psychiatric Medications I am...

Apr 17th

I am now 55 wow

I turned 55 Monday and it feels strange for many reasons. One reason for sure is that I never thought I would live this long. I knew that I was becoming healthier since 2006 and I knew I had become accepting of those things I could not change about me. I’m glad that now I understand and am grateful for something a doctor said years ago He said I would never be my age. then it hurt like hell...

Feb 1st

want to post what was in the Wichita Eagle Sunday

Mental health dialogue needs to be more open, Wichita-area advocates say 20 Comments BY RON SYLVESTER The Wichita Eagle PHOTOS « 1 of 1 » GETTING HELP Community resources for people suffering from mental illness and their families: Comcare Crisis Hotline: 316-660-7500. Answered 24 hours Other emergencies: 911 — ask for an CIT-trained officer (crisis intervention training). NAMI/Wichita: (316)...

Jan 17th

Sunday,What can I say about Sunday?

There is so much I want to say about Sunday. Sunday starts a new week. It is a day of rest for some who believe that God was talking about Sunday. People go to a building where they meet with others and they sing and listen to someone talk about God and how we ought to be doing things better for others. Sunday use to be very important to me, going to a building greeting everyone, singing songs...

Nov 28th

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This Saturday I am stuck at home

So I was nice, and let Jeff take my car to work at the mall. I then wish I had my car, so if I wanted to go out I could, but knowing me, I would stay home anyway. As I sit here and wonder what to do that would make my day a good day. I have decided to practice my sessions that I am facilitating the week of the 6th. at the 5-day Basic Certified Peer Specialist training. I have also decided to put...

Nov 27th

What I want for Christmas if I could have.

I just want to write down what I want for Christmas. Knowing that it will not happen but part of the fun is that wish list. I want money so that I can get out of debt. Want to pay off my school loan. Want to pay off a debt that I cannot stop I have to just pay it off. I want 100. for books or things like that. I want 300. to buy some cloths at Catherines I want to have enough money to go to...

Nov 27th

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What am I thankful for this Thanksgiving

These are things that I am grateful for this Thanksgiving. I am thankful that Jeff and I are together. I am thankful that living in a big house with my brother and Jeff has been a real blessing. I am thankful that I have seen and talk with my son. I am thankful that I have a job at the place I love to work at CCSR. I am thankful for being able to pay my bills and not be in debt. I am...

Nov 25th

maybe a better before I die list:

Maybe before the time is up I can get a tatoo have everything I want typed out typed give away a lot of things to other people I do not know go to the East coast go to Alternatives go to NAPS work full time at ____ start going out with others and not call off at the last second because of my head. be a better person, wife, mother, sister, cousin,co-worker, friend, citizen go in peace

Sep 7th

it has been way to long

I know that I have not been on here for a long time, and a lot of things have happened. First I have deleted a lot of my old pages because they did not fit anymore, and some of them I just do not believe anymore, and then there are those that still do fit. As I sit here and want to put stuff in my blog, I just do not know where to start. I guess I could talk about my Year so far. I do not think...

Sep 4th

Dec 2nd

grief

Not sure what to Title this . Does it really matter, I mean in the end,and we all have an end, right? I lost a friend last night . She was in a safe place, a hospital, and she died anyway of a massive heart attack. (yes my spelling is going to not be so good, and as you read this, if you get stuck on that you have missed it big time. Why is it some want to to die, and some die. Why is it...

Nov 30th

Here is my victim statement that I said to the...

To Judge Belot and the prosecution and the defense and people here in the court room, my name is Nancy Jensen and I am a survivor of Kaufman House. My understanding of us being here today is to look at sentencing Linda to possible more time. I want to make a statement to make clear my position as someone who lived through Kaufman House, someone who tried to get people out of Kaufman House ,...

Nov 11th

Do not understand -please do not judge this on...

I cannot sleep so I need to type write or something. I have decided to get off my meds why? why not? The people who question me being off of them have not lived my life, or they do not understand what the meds do that is no fun. They see the benefit in terms of how it saves them from having to worry about me. Right now iI do not give a shit what they think. I mean i do care because I care about...

Jul 29th

Jul 4th

wow a new car and to think of how i got it wow

I got my new car i”m so excited, I’m grateful that something that was really bad has turned out to give me something really good and needed.not that what my friends and i went through is worth the money and what we get from it. but that he had to pay for what he did to us some way, it’s to bad that money cannot take a way the damage he did and all the years he got a way with...

Jun 26th

thought i would do my bucket list just in case

here is my bucket list just in case i cannot get rid of the blood clots out of lungs and we can not find where they are coming from. places i want to go to NYC Washington D C to see friends out east what i would like to do speak at Alternatives have a book about my experience be written see some old friends again go meet some others who have made a difference to learn from...

Jun 8th

what has been happening in my life

I have done some awesome things recently I got to be one of the trainers at the Certified Peer Specialist Trainings. It was very important for me to be a part of people I admire. It helped me to see myself more on a equal level than second best. I really put myself into what I knew and wanted the peers learning this stuff to know. It was an awesome experience. It was also important to me to...

Apr 13th

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I am back,

Just need to type my thoughts out so i can get them out of my head and out there. I love being needed, yet it is very hard for me when I get my hopes up and then the plan changes. You would think by now I would learn to deal with that yet I have not yet guess i will not either. Same thing when someone says “we should do this” or “I want to help you do this” I take it in...

Mar 24th

WHERE HAVE I BEEN AND WHAT I HAVE BEEN DOING

I have not been blogging for a while plus i just got done cleaning up my blog. I got a job working at the Mental Health Association of South Central Kansas as a Certified Peer Specialist. It is a good new adventure for all involve. I am teaching “Common Ground with my peers during one of their groups. It is so neat when peers realize they have a voice in the care they want and what they do...

Mar 23rd

25 things about Nancy

1. I like to be around others 2. I like to be alone sometimes 3. I love my cat 4. I have lived in Canon City, Gleenwood Springs, Rifle, Colorado. In Kansas i lived in Newton. and now Wichita. 5. I have been a CNA, Activity Director, kitchen helper in nursing home and Wesley Hospital 6. I rode my three wheel bike to 2nd grade 7 I like non fiction about history and mental illness 8. I have a son I...

Feb 1st

My 53 Birthday

wow never thought i would be here at 53 years old. I really did not. I am so grateful that inspite of my illness I have survived and not just survived but i have also became a better me. even though the years have been very hard and because of struggling with mental illness I lost a lot of good times, good friendships, good experiences, great jobs, and other things that those who do not struggle...

Jan 31st

In My Head

In my head, I have lots of thoughts that I just do not know what to do with. I need to take some action on some of the things I am thinking and yet do not know what. Welcome to my world Have you ever had a vision, a purpose, a passion, and for three years you did everything with that vision, and purpose, and passion. You then realized that ,the things you were doing in order to do the vision,...

Jan 18th

Jan 15th

What I hope for 2009

I hope that I can find a job, working with others like myself, to help people with mental illness know that recovery is possible, that they do not have to live the mental illness. They are not their illness and does not have to be defined by it anymore. That i can get out more, that I can get to meet new friends and do some fun things. Would love to go to a famous place. See friends who moved a...

Jan 1st

2008 is almost over and what was the big things in...

some of the big things that happen this past year -I went to Faith Mennonite Church in Newton and talk to some folks about Kaufman and the other side of what they have heard. Gave the the survivor perspective. -I was going to WSU and also ended my time at WSU with a 3.84 GPA, Which is very important accomplishment in my life. -I work through some very hard character changes i needed to make and...

Jan 1st

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